It's been a while since I wrote a blog. With coaching basketball and working on the new house I've been extremely busy. Not to mention working two jobs. This doesn't mean I don't have a lot to say. The month of March is always a hard month. Most people that know me well know I've lost two brothers in this month. One in 1988 and the other in 1998. Leukemia and Brain Cancer are the horrible diseases that took my brothers. In fact tomorrow marks the 15 year anniversary that my brother Darin lost his battle with Brain Cancer. Being fresh outta high school, still a kid, dealing with death again. Most normal kids don't have to deal with death as many times as I did as a kid. With my younger brother it was hard but with my older brother it was very difficult. I blamed GOD for his death, and hated GOD! I can remember turning my back on him and vowing not to go to church anymore. I slipped into a deep depression and couldn't get out of it! I had to be put on an anti-depressant to cope with it. Many years of not dealing with the death of my younger brother and losing a second made it worse. I spent a lot of time alone, wondering if I could go on. I thought of suicide but knowing what it would do to my parents could have never done it! That would have also been very selfish of me!
It took me years before I could find the strength I needed to stand up as a Christian and admit I was wrong for blaming GOD. I understand that he does things that he doesn't have to answer for in our eyes. He does things to make us stronger as Christians! Turn my back on GOD, not today my friend! Not ever! When you feel like you have no one, he's there! I turned my back on him but he never turned his back on me! If people turned to him everyday they would live better lives. I am a soldier of CHRIST!
